waseh... exams again... will blog again soon.

out of order for a while~ xDD

A rule. A distinctive guideline of appropriate behaviour that is deemed acceptable, be it verbal, physical or anything in-between by people around you.

Theres two parts to a rule. Theres the followers, and theres the setters. When you say 'I obey the rules' you're a follower. Obedient, docile and a widely accepted commoner. 'If 'I disobey the rules' you're an outcast. Rebelious, unworthy and displacable.

Well.. rules aren't what they used to be anymore. Rules in traditional times were meant to be a mere guideline for future generations, by instilling a sense of fear to keep people in line and order. As times change, people change, and every darn thing in the world changed, but the rules did not. Many stayed stagnant.

With the dawn of the new age, people are no longer confounding themselves to the said rules, nor do they continue to follow them blindly. Our senses, observations, cunning, analytical skills have already been boosted to a level that we can tell right from wrong, without someone setting it for us pre-handed. The time has come where we can already think for ourselves, make choics that best suit us, even if it goes against the 'rules'.

But what if... the original setters of these rules didn't want to keep thier promise in the first place? What if... they have been so darn addicted to being in control all this while, they refuse to let things develop by themselves?

'Its for your own good' - over-controlling parents.
'We know whats best for you, and your country' - overpowering nations.
'We noe whats best for the people.' - over-thier head political parties.
'Trust me, its in our best interests.' - suppresive employers.

Its not something new anymore. Everyone have this feeling. That ur being caged up. Ur abilities suppressed. Confined to doing whats 'best for you', whats 'in your interests' and all that bull. I'm not saying its wrong. I'm saying that its a fact. Its happening. They say 'if you love something, set it free.' But what they all want, is 'if you love something, keep them close to you, as close as possible, destroy anything that gets in the way, even if you have to lie, cheat, and steal.'

U noe why dreams don't come thru? You noe why half of the people you noe, are confined to being 'happy' yet they feel like something is missing?

Its this freedom of change.

This sense... that was once a mere longingness to break free from tradition and constituition, but because of our high levels of exposure today, is creating a whole new dimension of perception and beliefs. Gays, lesbians, transexuals, urbanisasion. These people dont follow the rules. They make them as they go. They believe in what they think is best for them , in thier own interests. Theyhave that feeling for change. And when you compare it all at the end of the day, they might not have the pleasure of perfect socitial acceptance. But they do have a sense of 'completion', simple, natural genuine feeling of perfection from the heart.

I'm not a pro-homo or watever, but my point is, these people know what the hell they are doing, and because they know what they are doing, they can put up a really good fight, against anyone, because its right. Justice always triumphs in the end and all that.

Look yourself in the mirror and ask yourself a few questions:
1. when was the last time you had a heart to heart talk with someone.
2. when was the last time you didn't have to be somebody other than yourself to get what you want.
3. when was the last time you did something for someone else and was 100% pleased with it, with no expectations for returns at all?
4. when was the last time you had the liberty to eat, walk, talk as you see fit, and felt good about it?
5. most importantly, when was the last time you gave yourself a pat on the back and said 'you did a good job?'

U can continue to lie to urself. I can continue to feel like I'm loving every moment of my life, but in fact I'm not. I can continue to say I satisfied, but in fact I want it all. I can continue to pretend that I'm somebody, but in reality ur somebody is only applied when people approve of it.

U c? Rules. Like it or not. We're doing it. Obeying some. Breaking some. Every, single day. Thing is, who the hell set them anyway? God? Did God tell the world that your destiny is to go to school, get a degree, work, get rich and then die? Did God set the rule that you're unworthy if ur not a good-looker, ur not a good speaker, ur not a good thinker, ur not a good anything-er? No.... God loves us all the same. Its the people in between that is mixing things up, controlling us like the puppets we are. Its the same people who told you to stay in school because street dancing is not for you. Its the same people who tell you that its vital to support them if you want to stay alive. Its the same people whos telling you to walk on the right side of the road, study cuz thats the only way ur gonna make it, watch TV and movies, listen to Oprah, getting wed, a car, a house and a good job is the perfect 10 of your life, stops you from dancing in class, trying out a new flavour, a new recipe, a new design because its 'stupid', telling you that your plans wont work, wearing formal to work is the way to go, working 9-5 shifts are the perfect income jobs, oversea goods are much much better than local ones and of course the same people who tell you that there is no way you can match them, because you are unworthy and they are always better than you.

And you know what? We listen. Yup. 'I obey the rules'. Because its wrong. Because they are older. Because they know better. Because they are so much the wiser.

Sometimes thats just the way things are. People who have been in control, want more and more of in, and in the end, they deter away from what they started out to be. Its a mere hipothesis. And of course it doesn't go for all cases.

But how sure are you that they really do 'KNOW BETTER'? Why not trust urself? Ur instincts? Ur feelings? Wild dreams, emotional turmoils, crazy ambitions that dont put food on the table. Thats what really pisses me off. They like to label every darn thing we do.

Maybe its time we try to stop depending on views, teaching and guidelines from others too much. We are a trully dependent generation, you know. Maybe its time we trust ourselves instead, and find a world that trully belongs to us, and not one that has been designed, shaped and carefully crafted to shield us from harm and danger, yet is keeping us away from the truth.

I bet someone told Columbus that the world was flat. I bet many people laughed at him. And I bet when he proved them wrong, he had the last laugh. Had he backed down, like what we have been doing all this while, that last laugh will never come true.

History is Written by the victors. So how much truth can u gather from it? How much faith will you continue to put in, when cracks, faults and dents are beginning to appear on the covers, and little by little is revealing the real truth behind all thats going on today?

Be yourself. Don't overdo it. Be a mover of our generation. The 21st century, educated, street-smart, sweet-mouthed, cunning, quick, agile, compassionate, determined and spirited soul. Change the world, by changing yourself. Let them know, we appriciate all the things they have put us through, but now its time we take matters into out own hands, and see the world like it really is. We're sick and tired of lies. We're sick and tired of half-truths and false accusations. We're sick and tired of under-carpet information and alledged 'P n C's.

We want to know. We are determined to know. And by God we're in gear to know. The only thing stopping us now, is ourselves.

Wise men grow wiser with age, as do wine and its taste. But who sets the measurement, that a young boy like Alexander, cannot have the courage, the knowledge, the spirit and the strength to overtake his fore-fathers in dominating the world?

We followed the rules.

At least tell us the whys and hows of setting them. Because the day we know those rules aren't really working anymore, we'll take charge, and by then, the tables will be turned. You cant hide the truth forever.

Hahahahah~ Yea... I'm happy today.

GOt something out of my chest, and I'm confident its in good hands. And the effect is freakin immediate. I'm beginning to feel relaxed and easier. ^^ Had a great time today.

Teambuilding was hilarious. Yee Hong's group did a major performance and we laughed our heads off (will post the video soon... tired and lazy now~ xD). Pritam = neutral. Marketing = Bored. EFM = seeing CCY, Siew Li, Yee Hong, Allison, Kelly and Winnie do their thang during the oral presentation. Haha~ Had to say Kelly did a real good job. Her 'aura' was stronger than the rest, and she made minimal mistakes.

The moment I hit home, edited the final draft for the PM project, and Cheng You, his gal, Jake and I went for dinner. After dinner I had the liberty to try out DOTA one more time. Lol. I tell you. Worst exp ever. Got called noob a few times, and everyone left the room! Yea~ My Dota standard dam 7 high la now. T.T Had a try on Call of Duty Modern Warfare 2 though... Awesome~ xDD

Charging my handphone, so I cant upload anything... at least not until 2moro. xDD (excuses and moral uncertainty applied**)

K~ till then... Night!

'Repeating Rob Thomas's Her Diamonds over and over again, waiting for it to rain again so that I can have a good night's rest, thinking about the things that happened today, feeling relieved that I had that sharing session, and wishing the PM tutor would accept the project and juz shuttap 2moro. GG'

2.17AM, I'm bored and sleepy, but filled with no motivation to slumber at all~ xDDD (muz be the maggi goreng... I'm gonna get cancer soon~)

^^ Had a great dinner. Jake brought his gal out tonite; CCY and our host/driver/boss/bill-settler Yee Hong. Headed to Purple Forest (紫林 fuyoh Chinese improvin) and a rather satisfying meal indeed.





ANyway on da way there we juz haddd to stop by and 'sampat' at some random 'lok-lok' stand, and I ended up paying 60 cents for it.

I mean wth... =_='' they're making hello kitty-fishball a-la-cartes. This is so wrong....

Yeah.. bad lighting... I blame the camera and the man behind it. Tsk tsk.

Still... really funny occasion. The three of em' (CCY, Jake n his gal) were supposed to go for some 007 high-priority meeting at some classified location somewhere in the basements of Kampar (Grand Kampar Hotel i'm guessing), so yeah... watches and handphones were drawn out every minute. Edgy~

Food here's... err... wait I've not blogged about Kampar food in detail yet huh? There's this saying here that goes 'Sugar and Salt in Kampar is free'; '这边的糖和盐不用钱的'. Serious. Every freakin dish we have here only comes in two flavours. Sir, would like it Salty or Sweet. I mean it. U shud have a go at it urself.

Anyway the menu's impressive and all. They had a set dinner priced at RM8.00 for the top menus. Not sure about it at first, but went ahead anyway. I had to tell u. Made the most ridiculous mistake that night. I had fish-steaks with mushroom sauce, iced watermelon juice and a dash of ice-cream.

Nothings gonna change my love for you (watermelons)~~

'Gigantic' set of fish and White Rice. =_='''


Ok... so why on Earth am I blogging about this shyte? Its not supposed to be worth any mentioning at all.. until I found out...

The mushroom sauce, ladies and gentlemen. Was all salt. AwesooOOooOOoome~

=_='' wierd taste man! Seriously!! But finished it non-the less.

O and yeah. Prototyping the old culture, men always finsih thier food, while the mild-appitite galfren shud leave the plate half-eaten. Check this out:

Check out the couple if ya want to, but notice the plates. xDDD O btw, thats Jake, his gf and thier blinding glare of intimacy. (dun let the innocent face fool ya, he knew I was taking this. GG)

There you have it. One of the 1001 things we as Kampar dudes and dude-ess do on a Tuesday night. Gonna freshen up and watch some drama now (thats another of the 1001 Kampar habits) xDDDD Byez~

Okay really wierd day. Went to school only to realise that there was a mid term on EFM. =_='' yea.. and it was bullshit. Dam easy (not saying I wont make mistakes but damnnnN!!!) And then there was a presentation for Teambuilding. Had to go on with it imprompto, cuz I wasn't ready. But I think we did really well given the circumstances. XD

1st group to present.. xDD

And yeah... then there the random part of UTAR life again.

More bikes and more skies. I think this is what we call culture. The bikes and the skies~~ =_=''

K. GOing to makan now. Bye~

Remedy for the crazy hot weather (probably wont last.. with my 2 semester's wrth of exp its gonna rain soon) - Ice Shack!!!
It was sooooo delicious~~

C? Thats wat I'm talking about! Cool, refeshing ice on a hot November's Day!

.... and with ppl to share them with!! xDDD

Going for class now. Chaioz~

(Jay-Z):
Everytime
The guns goes blast
Another day goes past
I don't miss my dogs
I'm wishing the days
Could go fast
So I could crash
Close my eyes
Try to go to sleep
And bring you back but
I can bring you back
(Nah can bring you back)
So I back
Back memories of us
Acting bad
Wish time could freeze
But time is up
And I promise ya
Imma hold it down
Till it's my time
To leave and I'm ok
I mean
Am allright not ok
And it hurts my soul
I won't see your face
But if u truely
Are in a better place
Like what say
And that's ok
I'll be allright
I've been up all night
Like if I didn't
With my nigga to be living
With the time
Tick-tick-ticking away
So forever I'm forever
I'm in search of yesterday
(Yesterday)
Like a beattle song
I close my eyes
Repeat the song
Tryna bring us back
To where we belong
Middle of the club
When be was on I tear
The song blowing on
Going back before
So when I meet the don u
Should know I meet way back
With my dog when I go
So when times says goodbye
Y'all say hello

(Mariah):
Bye, bye (3x)
Bye, bye

(Jay-Z):
Rock with me
MC come one

(Mariah):
And you never got the chance
To see how good I've done
And you never got to see me
Back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could spend
The holidays together

I remember when you used
To tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear
You gave to me
That I held so tight
I thought you
Were so strong
That you can make it
Through whatever
It's so hard
To accept the fact
You're gone forever

Never knew
I could hurt like this
And everyday
Life goes on like
I wish I could
Talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way
Try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach
A better place
Still I'll give
The whole world
To see your face
And I'm right here
Next to you
It feels like you
Gone too soon
The hardest thing to do
Is say bye, bye

Bye, bye (3x)
Bye, bye

This is for my people's
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
(Put em up, put em up)
We will never say bye
(No, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's, sisters
Brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people's
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
(Lift it up lift it up)
'Cos we will never
Say bye, bye

Never knew
I could hurt like this
(I never knew it)
And everyday
Life goes on like
(Everyday of my life I wish)
I wish I could
Talk to you for awhile
(I wish)
Miss you
But I try not to cry
As time goes by
(I wish, I wish
I wish as time goes by)
And as soon
As you reached
A better place
Still I'll give the world
To see your face
And we were here
Next to you
It feels
Like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing
To do
Is say bye, bye

(It's hard to say
Bye, bye, bye
Bye, bye, bye
So come on
Somebody sing it with me
Wave your hands up high
Hey, hey
This if for my people's
Who just lost somebody
So this is for everybody
You put your hand to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye, bye)